Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Shaz Cheetham's LiveJournal:

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Monday, November 23rd, 2009
5:07 pm	Just a quickie O2 CAN STICK IT WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE IF THEY THINK THERE GETTING ANY MORE MONEY OUT OF ME WHEN I CANCELLED THEM! AND..... SUPERDRUG CAN GO FORTH AND MULTIPLY IF I HAVE TO ORDER A SEVENTH SET OF DISCOUNT CARDS BECAUSE EITHER THE HEAD OFFICE CHIMPS ARE TOO BUSY EATING BANANA'S OR THE TIGHT FISTED GITS ARE MAKING CHEAP, DODGEY CARDS SO THEY DON'T HAVE TO GIVE ME THE DISCOUNT I'M ENTITLED TO! YOU MAY CUT MY WAGES BUT YOU'LL NEVER TAKE AWAY MY MEASLEY TEN PERCENT OFF! I'M POOR ENOUGH! THAT £1 OFF CAN BUY ME MY LUNCH! AND.... SHOULD I HAVE TO ORDER ANOTHER CARD WHICH I WILL UNDOUBTEDLEY HAVE TO DO BECAUSE IT TOOK THREE PEOPLE, A MASSIVE TANTRUM, AND MANY SWIPING POSITIONS BEFORE IT WOULD WORK, AND THEY HAVE THE CHEEK TO RING ME UP AND SAY "ACCORDING TO OUR RECORDS YOU HAVE HAD SEVEN DISCOUNT CARDS IN UNDER A YEAR" THERE MAY WELL BE SOME FOUL AND ABUSIVE LANGUAGE INVOLVED! FIERCE! *DEEP BREATHS* Current Mood: FEROCIOUS (Comment on this)
Friday, November 13th, 2009
5:43 pm	28 Weeks Later...... Wow! I've just been flicking through my entries when I thought it's nearly time for my super long essay about that year, so I thought i'd look at this years entries and i've only wrote 4! That's shocking! I was just thinking i'd have probably wrote more if it wasn't for the creep who keeps commenting on my last entry but then I thought, Shaz, you have a live journal, LIVE being the operative word there. If some creep is going to comment on it all the time then so be it why should I be bothered? It's not like it's death threats! (I wonder if I might regret saying that!) You never know whoever it is might be to offer some insight! How many people can say they have a journal that talks back? *laughs* (that would be most users of LJ then!) Mind you, whoever it is never actually said anything related to the entry so I guess that's that one out the window then! I think my end of year entry going to be a difficult one this year, I usually read through my other entries and piece together month by month but how am I going to do that with 4 entries! It might actually be easier because in the past I 've had plenty of entries to write about and this time i've got barely anything to go on. I guess we'll see won't we! I'm useless at back tracking so i'm not even going to try. I haven't got the time to anyway, I think i'll save that for my end of year thing. Anyway, living in the present something has bothered me for the last couple of days. Today I ring up my beloved because i've not spoke to or seen him since monday, I tried to get in tough on wednesday but his phone was off and no one answered the house phone, not even the answer machine so I guessed it was on the blink. I sent a text explaining I tried to get in touch and to ring back, and there's a great thing known as the delivery report which told me he turned his phone on wednesday night at 23:09. Thursday - nothing. I figured, he's a bloke. I could be waiting the rest of my life for him to ring back so I rang him today and he claims he never got my text! Despite it being delivered! Surely the message status would still just be "sent" and not "delivered" if he had not received it. Why lie? That's not the best bit, chilling with Leanne and Linzi last night and Linzi was talking about her boyfriend and it came to me and Ste, where she says "Wasn't Ste still with Kate when you got together?" NO, didn't even have to think about it because I was always under the impression we met as two single people making their way in the world! Well, I had had my doubts months earlier when Leanne told me he met Kate the day after we met but he said he was just getting his stuff back off her and I was reassured that, although not much time had passed, he had definitely split from her before we met. And now? I'm not so sure. She had messaged me before we even got together when she saw me and Ste together on a photo demanding to know what had happened that night but he just said she was lieing to cause trouble and that was the first time I guessed they hadn't been broken up long, because before that he had mentioned her like it was ages ago and said nothing more until later on. Now it turns out that perhaps they hadn't been broken up at all! It's ironic really because I gave myself a kick up the arse a while ago after being involved with a couple of lads that had been "attached" at the time (that sounds really bad but it was over a long time, everybody makes mistakes!). I didn't want to be "the other woman" just "the woman" and the only one at that. I turned over a new leaf and now I'm being FALSELY accused of being just that! It makes sense, Kate leaving that message, Linzi asking if they were still together, one of Kate's friend accusing me of getting with Ste while he was with her, the looks I get off people who know her (Ste tells me who they are) and Leanne admitted she doesn't know if they were together or not. Perhaps the funny looks and being accused could be put down to her lieing and stirring trouble but what if it's not? What do I do? Current Mood: confused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 1st, 2009
3:21 pm	Drew Barrymore Yes, Drew Barrymore. Why you ask? My boyfriend loves this woman. Drew this, Drew that, Drew, Drew, Drew. How the hell do I compare to that?! Makes me wonder why he's even with me Current Mood: sad (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 19th, 2009
7:26 pm	Times Like These It's about time I wrote about something good for once! Right, this is only going to be a quicky! I was just thinking to myself earlier that things are starting to look up. I was thinking about Ste, and I thought to myself, in spite of all the things he does that absolutely piss me off, (and let's face it, there's never going to be a time when guys don't do that is there?) I may well be on to a good thing here! It's just weird little things, like a while ago he was talking about going on Clifton marina in the summer which may not sound like something to think about but I just thought. My god. This is possibly the first time in many years and in many relationships that someone has actually spoke about the future, if that makes any sense? And not just next week, or next month, or your birthday for instance. He didn't even think about it really, and it wasn't followed by a "if we're still together" either. I cannot remember the last time I was in a relationship and something like that was said! I guess that's pretty sad actually! Another thing as well, we we're talking the other night about babies and weddings and stuff, just messing about of course! But I think of past relationships (if you can call them that!) and I wouldn't have dreamt about saying stuff like that, even though it is just clowning about! Thinking about it he's usually the one to bring stuff like that up, he was telling me I was pregnant not all that long ago, then one of the girls said something and then I did a test to prove them all wrong! NEGATIVE! And he still tried to say I was, going on about a "positive negative" if that was the case then pregnancy tests may as well be rendered useless! It's all shits and giggles! I know it's lowering the mood a bit but it's worrying. I can't help but think, with all my paranoid delusions (not to mention when they've actually been right!) and all that jazz if I going to stick my foot in it. He's not much better than me when it comes down to it either and I sometimes wonder if it will be our undoing. I have said to him we could end in two ways, he gets sick of my paranoid ways, or my paranoid ways drive me to the edge! And with his front, he hardly makes me feel any better about it, particularly when he's doing it on purpose! Anyway, enough about that. I'm finally moving out! It all got delayed because the boiler had broke, then, a week later than planned we go to get the keys only to be told no one's come to fix it! Now, after another week we've finally been told we can move in, with two weeks rent free too! It's so exciting! I could have moved in tomorrow but I have a 12 hour shift at work, it's going to go so slow! It's going to drive me insane. But finally a little place I can call my own! Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2009
1:44 pm	I Lost My Writing Mojo! Writing my entry about last year took a lot longer than I thought it would! To be frank I just couldn't be bothered. Seems I lost my writing mojo for a bit and now i'm lost as to where to kick off from! The beginning would probably be a good idea, I've lost out on about two months because I was still writing my last entry way into February, that and with a new relationship my thoughts have been elsewhere. Let's see, it's pointless me sitting here trying to remember significant events from January so i'll just get on with it and see where we end up!  Right, this coming Saturday i'm moving out! Been shopping today for cleaning stuff, pans, and bits and pieces! I can't wait to have my own space without anyone breathing down my neck. It's a bit daunting  mind you, thinking about bills and council tax and all this other stuff i've never had to give much thought to before. Still new adventures! It's Ste's birthday today. Went out for his birthday on Friday night, I wish I had stayed at home! He was winding me up about it all week going on about pure girls being invited, saying his mate was talking about prostitutes (apparently!), birthday kisses, the list goes on. With the threat of "pure girls" hanging over my head I get out the tan in a can, get dressed up to the nines, even the cheeky suspenders came out! But honestly, how sad is that? Sad my boyfriend feels the need to come out with the threat of other girls and birthday kisses and sad that I feel the need to react. I swear I felt physically ill before we went out, mind you I felt much better and was slightly amused when only 4 people (including ourselves) turned up. It was an okay night until the end but I shall keep it short. We were in a pub and I was sat outside when Ste comes out saying he was dicking about dancing on the way to the loo and some girl starts dancing with him. Then I saw him when I was at the bar talking to this girl, not a crime I know but he was winding me up all week and then he felt the need to confess, stinks of a guilty conscience if you ask me. So I see him at the bar talking to her, when a group of people moved out of the way and he eventually comes back over to me with his phone in his hand and a grin on his face! I confront him about it and he says he was giving her his number so they could be "friends" or some bollocks and after some words it was seemingly sorted out until I go outside and then I see him chatting on to her again through the window the minute I turn my back! The following day he tells me he wasn't ever gonna give her his number, he didn't get hers, it wasn't even said he just did it on purpose to get a reaction out of me because he wants to feel wanted!? DOES THAT MAKE SENSE TO ANYONE! That's not the only thing that made me wish I stayed at home, after I saw him with that girl he ended up wearing my cider and black and I disappeared sharpish before I did something even worse and hot footed it to the nearest place. Anyway, I thought i'd gotten away but it wasn't to be they turned up. Then my ex drags him outside and I go after them, like what's going on. Ste walks off and i'm saying to Matt what are you doing! Anyway he was just chatting rubbish after that so I go to find Ste only to find they've left me! What a waste of time sticking up for him was when that's what I get in return. I finally discover they've gone to Tanya's, I finally got an address (blood and stone comes to mind) hopped in a taxi (dear do, and for what? To be with him) only to knock on an empty house in a street in the middle of no where for all I knew! I also lose my purse and my jacket which wouldn't have happened if I hadn't bothered. DISASTER! We had made up but last night he was going on about me cheating on him in the future after what he did a couple of nights earlier! That and we were talking about it over the phone and he asked me to meet him and talk face to face. When I met him he was all nicey nicey and we never spoke about it so it's still unresolved. It's not all bad, I'm on cloud nine with him most of the time and I love him to bits but when your happy you just enjoy it, or I do anyway, when somethings bothers me I feel the need to vent! The bank have annoyed me today. I went in yesterday reported my card lost and all that jazz but then they say they can't order me a chip and pin! So I go in again today, and they've ordered my shitty solo card that 16 year old have that I have and i'm nearly 20! Anyway I ask about that and they say I can't have one! Then they say my account is a student account even though I asked them to change that like over a year ago! I asked them for a debit card when I was 18 ands it was supposed to be sorted out back then! GRRRR! I also go to Matalan to take some jeans back and they wouldn't give me a refund! I wouldn't be bothered but I need the money in the absence of my bank card! All because they didn't have a label on them which they didn't have anyway, that and now I don't have my money, and I don't even have a pair of jeans that don't fit to show for it because they kept them even though they "can't sell them anymore". The manager guy is up his own arse, so was the receptionist, a proper jobs worth with make up so orange her face looked jaundiced and eyeshadow that looked like a three year old had done it!     That will do! Current Mood: gutted (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 14th, 2009
3:28 pm	Another Leisurely Walk Down Memory Lane! Right here we go! January I had a rant about the male species! Which I believed was aimed at Matt and O'Malley. It's funny because it's jogged my memory, there I was quite a nasty split from Matt and I was so preoccupied by that and all my other shit at the time I couldn't even see what was staring me in the face! I remember telling Soph further down the line about it all and she didn't believe me that I was completely oblivious to O'Malley's, how can I put it without sounding gay, attentions shall we say? I was just laughing at a private entry I wrote, I was stressing out about one off kisses, but seen as that one was plural, I wrote something like "that makes it two one offs though right?" Dead funny! In fact i'm surprised he still speaks to me i've been kinda nasty at times but that may become more apparent later on. Moving on before I confuse myself (and it's pretty darn easy!) February Hilariousness! Me and Sophie thought there was a man in ceiling because we didn't clock this dodgy bloke coming out of the loo! We were looking up at the ceiling all day waiting for like a leg to break through the ceiling tiles! I had my toncils out in February, I was so pleased to finally have the bastards out! Plus I had O'Malley as my slave, BONUS! (Hardly....*sniggers*). My god I was going to Overdraught still! It seems like such a long time a go, mind you so much has changed this year its no wonder! Matt kicked off with his cronies, now there is one person I am soooo glad to be rid of! March I set my sights on the army dog training job, only later to discover that i'm 3cms to short and not heavy enough! If there was a world war I bet they wouldn't have been all that fussy! AND after passing my test and getting an interview I didn't get a job at BOC either! My aunty started drinking again just in time for her mum's birthday, and my mum had a funny turn in morriway and scared the living daylights out of me! I split with O'Malley I never realised it was that short lived, particularly seen as he split with me and we got back together in that time as well. I bought roller blades and ranted about dreams too! To be honest it wasn't a very good month! April I read O'Malleys journal thing as he didn't realise I could see it and read stuff about me and then when we went out I was all I know what your gonna say! I felt incredibly cruel because it would be like him reading one of my private entries on here! I also did something very, very, very stupid that doesn't bear remembering (and luckily I don't remember much of!). I also acknowleged my overuse of certain punctuation (!!!!!!!!!) I also had another one of those creative moments I get but once in a blue moon! Cyber stalker reared it's ugly head again, which, seen as I discovered in quite a horrid way is not George, not Dick Van Dyke, but Luke. Because it seems like every fucker knew (or his mates anyway) how stupid is that though? If your trying to conceal a fling from your girlfriend you don't tell your mates about it! (or maybe that was just me). I also likened myself to a sweet randomly one morning(???) May I had a friday nightmare! And a nightmare it was indeed, I saw Luke in overdraught and was then busted by my mates because they knew I was seeing someone and my rather angry reaction to his presence gave it away (not that it actually mattered but back then I thought it was a "solid secret" to put it in my own words. I got myself in shit with O'malley when he saw me with Hackett (not one of my finer moments) it seemed we had our wires somewhat crossed and it's even come back to bite me on the arse recently when the shit stirrers among us, who clearly have no life of their own, labelled me a cheat to my new boyfriend when in fact we weren't together in that way! I got my short lived job at the woodside too! And soon left when I realised they didn't seem to know what a rota was, expected you to be psychic, and only employed you for their sunday rush! However I did learn how to pull a pint of Carlsberg! I went to my first 5th foam party, Boris the barman tried it on with me but lucky I was saved by Mell and Jerv who said I could jump in the 5th queue with them! We went back to overdraught where Luke's girlfriend comes over all apolygises and shakes my hand and stuff, I was weirded out to the max! June So it was my birthday! Went out with Soph, Emma, Lauren, and Laura and we were in fancy dress out on the town and then we ended up at a party with the matalan crew! But the best thing is I got made Beauty Specialist and got more hours and stuff! Whilst I was celebrating that I mentioned a Saturday vacancy at the shop to Jade and she's still our Saturday kid now! July I discovered I couldn't have my pill injection any more and was absolutely devastated! Had many a good night out too, went pub with Amy, Jillys with Kim, To her sisters 18th, and 2 nights out with the matalan crew! I made an executive decision about my love life to leave well alone and found out someone liked me. Is it me, or when you want male attention you don't get it and when you want it, it's no where to be seen! AND when your going out with someone it's EVERYWHERE! We had a load of shit going on at our the shop and we lost Sophie :(  August Me and Kim mooched to Prestwich for Kate's birthday and it was good fun playing drinking games and stuff! I also died my hair a funny gold colour, it wasn't good! However I sorted my hair out and went to a 5th Ave foam party with Lauren and saw ex boyfriends everywhere! Well not really saw O'Malley and Matt and for once he wasn't trying to knock me out!  September I met up with Dave, who I met through Kim but me being an idiot had missed the point and completely freaked out when he mentioned dates. It was a good night out though and ended up at the cross keys in Eccles. Never seen him since, shame really because he's a nice guy. I got giddy over a meeting with work in Bolton and went on a solo mission to JIllys! October I start chatting to Ste! I went on a mad paranoia trip even though at this point I hadn't started going out with him yet! (Not until the 24th although that's only an estimate because I thought nothing would come of it but apparently Ste knew we were going to get together weeks before when we went out with Leanne and Joni). Luke attempted to crawl out of the wood work but it just was not happening and I had a dicky fit at O'Malley for wasting my time (BIG pet hate). Josh also came to peck my head. It was definitely people-who-Shaz-doesn't-want-to-speak-to-speak-to-her-week! November I didn't really write much this month because I was too busy being giddy about getting with Ste! Awww bless! December I ate my words pretty quick after November because I went on another paranoid trip when loads of people were telling me shit about Ste but we made up soon after because he'd be told shit about me too. What's the point in listening to hear'say? Christmas eve was good until towards the end, Christmas day was good, traditional curry of course! And New years day was good too apart from being absolutely terrified the whole time! And that's it! FINALLY! It's only taken to me from January 14th - February 24th! Current Mood: relieved (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 28th, 2008
8:02 pm	NEWSFLASH! Well not really just can't think of a title! You'll have to bear with me because i'm writing from the future! *gasps* nah, my dates are out of order it's really 5th January 2009! But, to keep my diary in order and make things easier for simple little me I thought i'd separate it up a bit. So christmas eve was good...............until the end. Me, Ste, Leanne, and Joni went out on the top road and we were having a good time. We were taking the mick out of Ste's middle names (Stephen Phillip Harold Hall *sniggers*) and the fact Joni hates the triple velvet ads kid and his saying "soft, soft, soft" (many more derogatory comments came from that!). But then it all started to go sour, it began when me and Leanne were eating chips outside the Brit when some girl comes out shouting her mouth off to her mate. Whatever right? But then Leanne mouths to me "Ste's ex." (Kate) Whatever right? Only then Ste gets so pissed he's falling about everywhere knocking everyone's drinks over resulting in the bar staff refusing to serve him again. Kate had left by this point but, because Ste couldn't get served we moved on to the Showboat where Kate happened to be. And it seemed that in Kate's presence Ste had a point to prove (however I could be wrong, he was blind drunk). Anyway to cut a long story of he said she said short everyone started kicking off and I stayed out of it because it was none of my business. So I spent most of Christmas eve sat on my own well everyone was having a to do with each other outside. Then she comes over and has a go at me! AND then everyone's saying I wouldn't stand there and let her talk to my other half like that! What they weren't getting is that it was his own fault because if it was for Ste we would have been in the Brit still AND him just being there isn't going to calm the situation (as he claims to have been doing)! AND (finally I promise!) Leanne tells me about how he cheated on Kate, he told me he never did! When I asked him he was like yeah I did and? He should remember his lies in future! AND (okay I lied) it got me thinking about a message Kate sent going on asking if I was the girl he cheated on her with, am I? Then I find out that the night we met and went wigan pier and jillies and sparked the whole thing he'd only split up with her a matter of days ago! REBOUND RELATIONSHIP! Charming! Christmas day was good. Me, my mum, my dad, Simon, Karen, Matt, Karen's mum and dad, Val, Chris and Leon all went for a good old traditional curry! It was very nice and I must have put on 3 stone! Christmas is one of those days, you spend it with your family and, if all is well you get a nice warm fuzzy feeling inside, or, it's just crap! Luckily, warm, fuzzy feelings were present! Mind you Ste put a downer on it when he decides to tell me that during his "arguement" with Kate he told her he loved her (past tense of course) because he did.................but then he never did, whatever I don't care ignorance is bliss i'm sick of hearing it! I was also told of explicit details of their relationship I DON'T NEED TO KNOW, I don't care and even Ross was like Ste shut up! But apart from that lovely! New years eve was okay. Compared to last it was utter bliss! I have to admit I wasn't really in the mood for it and my drunken mother put a bit of a downer on it because we went back to mine about half 12 and my mum and dad came in not longer after us and my mum gave me the 3rd degree bearing in mind a few hours earlier she said "why don't you and Ste come here?" WHAT! Parents are mystical creatures! The next morning my mum couldn't even remember! New years day ..................................................................................................................... I was so terrified I felt physically ill! I spent new years day afternoon with Ste and his family at his sisters and I cannot begin to tell you how much I was dreading it! It was okay even though I nearly took out a house plant, disaster avoided though! Well it could have been a lot worse! His family are all really nice too so thats a bonus, but i'm afraid his parents will always strike the fear of god in me whether there really nice or not!  Current Mood: back tracking (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 4th, 2008
7:18 pm	Poorly Sick! *groans* I've felt really crap the past few days. My Gran's been in and out of hospital for numerous different reasons, or so I gather as I never seem to get told these things. Not to mention my banging head, feeling sick, eyes hurting, chesty cough, muscles aching! Happy f**king days! I reckon I caught it off Ste seen as all his ailments are my fault! Thinking of Ste I think i'm already eating my words from my last entry (surprise surprise) . I've had people telling me all sorts of things about him and what I can gather he's probably had the same about me! In fact I think I know, I know from source (a trustworthy one) that he's doubted me and from the same trustworthy source that he got paranoid about me (which explains why he was off with me on said night). Then I heard off 2 different people who don't know each other that he'd been chatting up or whatever, 2 different girls, again who wouldn't even know each other. So we're sat there one night in silence watching TV and the little voices in my head are screaming at me "WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE YOU IDIOT!" "HAVE YOU GOT DOORMAT WRITTEN ON YOUR HEAD" and numerous other insults (it was a noisy silence) and everytime I glanced over to him he looked at me like I'd just asked him to wash the pots! I got up and left not forgetting to add a sly remark. However we made it up, or at least I think so. It was still bugging me though so I left a facebook message basically outlining that it's no use asking other people (particularly those who have an axe to grind) about each other and that in future we should ask each other instead. Last time we spoke we were alright but I think i'm just slipping back into my paranoid ways. I don't think the stupid pill and it's stupid hormones and girl shite as helped either! I just need to remember that I wouldn't like someone accusing me of all sorts, and although i'm no saint thats not who I am anymore and I wouldn't want to be judged on that. If I give it my all and it falls to bits at least I know I will have tried my best. I'd rather regret what i've done rather than regret things I should have or could have done. Typical gemini, acts before she thinks. However I am no slut like some stupid web page suggested! Anyway i'm waffling on now because i'm in a mood. Current Mood: depressive (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 9th, 2008
2:44 pm	:-) I have a boyfriend! Ha, I sound like a 13 year old! *giggles* Me and Stephen have been together about 2 weeks! Not breaking any records I know but its all good so far. Even if Vikki Jones tried to "warn" him off me! I never knew she cared LOL it's so pathetic its funny but on a more serious note he told me and that means a lot. She should focus on her own relationship instead of interfering with others, i'm sure it would make her happier. So far so good anyway! Went to blackpool the other weekend with Soph and Emma! It was really good, well, apart from being tricked into going on 2 rides I wouldn't have otherwise gone on and they talked me into going on the iron bru revolution! All is forgiven though! Was a top day! We got our trains there and back okay, which is good because Soph put me in charge and I was dreading us getting lost or something daft. Now for a bit of a moan! (As always) and be warned it's girlie problems! I missed one stupid pill and came on! It sucks because i've missed the odd one before now and that never happened! I'd forgotten what period pain was like, it's shit because i'm not used to having to deal with it! Hopefully it should disappear as quick as it appeared! Going for a curry later with Amy and possibly Mullie guess i'll find out later. Hence the short entry, I have to do my beautifications! Toodles! Current Mood: content (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 21st, 2008
10:34 pm	I Want To Hide Under My Duvet Until All The Scary People Leave Me Alone! I've come for a moan! Surprise surprise! I swear, it's like, people-shaz-doesn't-want-to-talk-to-talk-to-her month! (I could have done better than that but I can't be bothered!) So to explain, Luke got in touch and luckily for me he fell out of touch as quickly as he got in touch which I have to say is just marvelous! I'm thinking it may or may not have something to do with me giving his ex or current girlfriend or whatever the alternate email he was talking to me on, well she asked and I figured if I told her he'd get in the shit somehow either way. I'm also not impressed because I discovered he's had the audacity to slag me off (a "proper goer" apparently, and if, like me you don't know what that means it means "up for it"). Okay, i'm not protesting to be an angel but he's worse than me! And now Josh has sent me a message! I thought i'd deleted every means of contact but it seems I missed out myspace. And he was demanding answers to a bunch of pointless questions. I mean I've made myself very clear on more than one occasion and he still doesn't seem to understand that I don't want to speak to him. I still read his essay, it's ashame he got it all wrong and I answered his questions, although one of them was in my better interests to answer really, I guess. Can't be arsed writing more I just want to hide under my duvet until all the scary people leave me alone! Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
7:41 pm	Counting To Ten, Very Slowly! Right this entry is going to be a bit backward I usually write things in the order they happened or at least almost but I just need to vent. Basically, people keep hassling me it feels like the whole world is conspiring against me, even the stupid coat hanger I stood on earlier in bare feet or the duvet cover not going properly! And Luke Russell has crawled out of the wood work in his usually style after months of silence. Perhaps I should have kept it to myself like I usually do but there's a difference this time, there is no chance I am going there again, getting caught up in the usual vicious circle. It's so sad, he adds me on facebook under the alter ego of "James Smith" and I knew it was him, or at least someone undesirable because there was no information about him, no photo, and no friends. I just clicked ignore but then I got a message to which I reply "I do not know a James Smith" then he says add me on msn and i'll explain, and me being so stupid, I do! Obviously not his normal msn, yet another false account. I'm just so angry at myself for letting him get to me. The thing is he usually gets in touch when i'm pretty low, he cheers me up but I'm always left feeling the same by the messy end of it. And well i'm pretty low right now. Then there's Stephen on facebook chatting me up, not that i'm complaining but he apparently wants more but i've heard odd stories about his ex that reminds me alot of Matt, an ex still in love with him and all that and me being quite a jealous type it drives me mad, I don't want history repeating itself. Although i've never really admitted it, it hurt enough the last time. Plus I know he has already lied because I mentioned it to Stephen about his ex and he was all yeah it's nothing I don't even text her back and all that but Leanne told me that he and this ex went out with Leanne and her boyfriend in the car or something, when he said he was feeling grim and he was in bed to me. That and when we went out Leanne said she had to cover for him because he told his ex he was somewhere else. Basically it may only be silly little lies but it still rings similiar to before and that ended, well, crap! I shouldn't really tarnish with the same brush... Then there's Anthony pecking head because I said I would lend him my old phone because now he now doesn't have one. That's all well and good he says lets go pub and I say great I can give you that phone then, but then I hear nothing, until much later on when he tells me the phone he was texting off ran out of credit and we'll go the following day. I was quite pissed off by that because when I got home from work that day I dug out the phone and charger turned it on and started sifting through all the stuff on it deleting it so he could have it that night, if there's one thing I can't stand it's people wasting my time! I wouldn't have minded too much but the excuse was pathetic, the phone ran out of credit but facebook doesn't run out of credit! A couple of minutes if that to write a message, so I wouldn't have been sat around waiting for a reply for ages and feel like a twat when my mum says "I thought you were out tonight?" And then the same today, waiting for a message of some description to if he's still coming and what time etc. I get a message how are you, I say meh because i'm generally in a mood (woman's perocative) and then nothing. Nothing. More NOTHING. I ring, when I get an answer he appears to not know what i'm on about I hang up in a rage only to get abuse over facebook, to save me writing it again it's here:  Anthony O'Malley Today at 7:24pm first of all it's christina's phone now, and the phone was in her room charging so we didn't hear, and secondly you said u were unwell so i assumed you wouldn't feel lyk goin 2 the pub so i thought i'd leave it and ask you 2morra. so don't have a paddy b4 u kno all the facts     Shaz Cheetham Today at 7:36pm I have got enough people hassling me and pecking head right now I can do with out it off you as well. I never said unwell I said "meh" as meaning stressy and how very quick you are to just assume (to assume makes an Ass out of U and ME afterall). I only rang that phone because I had heard nothing off you, you could have said something, facebook doesn't run out of credit afterall and two nights on the trot you've blown me out. I'm sorry for having a go because I shouldn't be taking anger out on you when it's because of other people its like an extra kick in the teeth. I even told you those pills make me OTT emotional. You can drop the attitude is this how you treat people you want something from?     Anthony O'Malley Today at 8:10pm yeah sorry too i should of got in touch and cheers for lending us ur phone He's quick to assume I even want to lend him my phone after that! I mean it would be one less way for him to pester me! LOL And now, the icing on the cake i've only gone and put a bloody dish washer tablet in the washing machine and got my mother nagging down my ear. Mix all this together with these stupid new pills i'm on that send me over the end for nothing and it's a recipe for disaster. The only thing is, without the pill what's the alternative? My usual hormones sending me over the edge instead plus (and it's a nasty observation) a blood bath and the old period pain?   Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 13th, 2008
6:37 pm	I Can't Think Of A Title! Hmmm was looking back over my last entry. Oops, I realise I was rather hasty in assuming Anthony would be Matt's mate and that Anthony would be listening, I mean he's deaf as dodo and this is Anthony were talking about, he was probably too drunk to see anyway! In fact I almost felt guilty because he facebooked me the day after! I was slightly suspicious but not so much anymore. Last weekend we went for a mooch, drank and watched funny stuff, not too sure how it all came about but alcohol's great at that! Also went pub and I got a bit tipsy there too! ANYWAY moving swiftly on Met up with Dave and some friends in Eccles, turn out kind of okay but I had no idea that it was supposed to be a date and it kind of went down hill from there. Stupid oblivious me, yet again. I can see it being one of those things, when someone has been oblivious to something obvious it will from now on be called "doing a Shaz". Was a good night over all but it got a bit awkward after that, oh well, life goes on. It was Lauren's birthday last week and it was a good night out! Well apart from our feet killing despite sensible old me brings out flats, because I went on to lose one! Lose a flaming shoe! I think might be refered to as, a "doing a Shaz" as well! It was good night but I feel really bad because I ended up not going back with them because I had bumped into James Asprey who I've not seen in ages and for some reason got really giddy about it, poor James! I went on a meeting with work on Wednesday! Giddy or what, but it wasn't particularly that interesting but we're doing a cosmetics perfection thing and it's creeping me out and I discovered that I have to do people's make up too eek! I'll live though! I'm also off to jillys tonight! Just me so far though! So popular! Someone did just message me but I missed him because he was like online for all of like 4 minutes! Gimme a chance like! (why I wrote that I don't know, sounds geordie in my mind). So that's it for now, only a QUICKIE! ta ra! Current Mood: Twitchy (Comment on this)
Monday, August 25th, 2008
3:03 am	ARGH! Ex boyfriends everywhere! Well I overexaggerate a bit! So I've got in from the 5th Avenue foam party which was ace! Me and lauren, Paul, Mark, and the other guy who I don't know the name of got pretty foamed up and I've got the crispy hair to prove it! Hopefully Lauren will have all the pics on facebook soon! In the end it turned out to be more of a foam fight but had a wicked time! But And there's always a but right!? Went to overdraught (apparently "Club Lounge" now, what are they trying to prove!) afterwards only to find Matt outside!? Barred, as ever, but whatever he was like harrassing me although we exchanged apologies (is that a good thing? I assume so) but he would not leave me alone (which is better than him threatening to kill me I guess LOL) so anyway went and raved in overdraught (/club lounge?) with Lauren and Ray (by this point) for abit and went outside to order a taxi and Matt was still there and pecking head while I was trying to order a taxi and like people kept popping up here there and everywhere whilst ordering it and when I finished Matt was trying to kick off with Ray (who by the way is about 6ft taller than him) so I was trying to get Matt away and saw Anthony and thought Anthony is Matt's friend, so I said to Anthony "will you do something with him please?" albeit, in a rather pissed off tone, as you would if an ex is kicking off with a mate who has said nothing to him what-so-ever, but he completely ignored me! I wouldn't mind being his an ex and all but this is his mate!  I mean, not for me but for his mate at the very least! AND! (there's usually one of those too!) Matt starts saying to me "you shagged O'Malley" over and over. I wouldn't really give a damn BUT I DIDN'T! And I told him so, to which he replied "That's what he's been saying!" I was so close to saying something I shouldn't, but that would have been unfair (compared to the lack of compassion I got when I asked Anthony to sort his mate out, I'm not asking for a chuffty badge, but I was more than reasonable). Am I the most unluckiest person or what? 2 ex's to which I could happily ignore (one of which did, even though i'd rather he didn't when it came to HIS mate, although oddly enough me and Matt were fine with each other (I think, these are blokes after all)) and harrassed by the other (Matt). To cut a long story short we were saved by the taxi! I'm just so easily wound up and i'm annoyed at myself for being wound up but who'd have thought that two ex's I haven't seen for like ever could peck head so much (despite one not even acknowledging me!) I'm sure if their reading their well proud of themselves! But other than that I must say I appreciate Paul, Mark, and that other guy (?) 's protection from the fat wankers practically trying to jump up and down on me and Lauren. Overall I had a top night anyway! I must admit the only reason i'm writing an entry at this stupid time in the morning is because i've been drinking vodka and red bull and i'm pretty darn wired! Night night all, I don't mean to rattle anyone's cage but hey this is my diary after all! Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
3:57 pm	Just A Quick One! So after all the chaos at work Sophie has been sacked and I really miss her and it just really sucks! Jean was also suspended but is returning soon after being off sick from the stress. The only thing is I don't think Sophie knows and I know it probably sounds quite selfish but I don't want to be the one who has to tell her. Went out for kate's birthday it was really good to see her again, it's been ages and although it took us ages to get there me and Kim finally made and the added bonus was I didn't feel rough for work the next day! We were playing drinking games including ring of fire which is pretty nasty with everyone putting a bit of what their drinking into one glass and anyone with an ace has to drink it. JD and coke, Malibu and lemonade, and two times of lager (one with lime) really doesn't appeal to me but at least I didn't have to drink any! Although Kim thought it was nice! Went to Jillys with Si too even though the person whose birthday it was wasn't going in the end and I did feel rough the next day! Then there was this woman managing who was trying to spread shit really! And she was wearing flip flops! HEALTH AND SAFETY! Also should be moving out after christmas although i'm being guilt tripped by my mum to move out with Si now Lucy is moving out with a friend. So I have to tell Ali I can't move out with her because my parents are quite literally taking the roof from over our heads, and I am not looking forward to it! I've also dyed my hair a funny gold colour! I put two bottles of lightener on it and left it on for like ever and it only went red so when I put my colour on it's gone gold and now i'm stuck with it for week until I can colour it again! It better go better next time because although i'm okay with it sort of now I still don't like it! Dave, who I thought I was getting on with rather well has now apparently reappeared a month after having an arguement with a friend of his.... That's all I can think of for the moment! Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 29th, 2008
8:16 pm	Shit Happens... Oh...my...god Work has been utter chaos this week, although i'm paranoid about writing anything about it because it's all hush hush and I wouldn't want to get anyone in trouble so i'll write it private and set it public when it's all resolved. But basically big management has been all over us and we weren't even allowed in our own staff room because they were interviewing people. It's been like an offsted inspection in a school where all the teachers go out of their way to do everything spot on and beg all the students to behave! Not that I do everything wrong in the shop mind! It's got me all paranoid anyway! And the heat in our shop is usually unbearable anyway has been at an absolute worse the past few days, with the gorgeous weather we're having at the moment and the fact there have been extra bodies in the shop, and the office in particular! A girl who came from another store said she was never going to complain about her store ever again! It's disgusting, sweating like mad and squirting perfume and sprays every opportunities because i'm paranoid I smell! But at the end of the day I bloody love that shop! I'm kind of looking forward to next week when Jean comes back but i'm dreading it too! Right, now then I thought my memory was bad when I lost my cup of coffee but then I was relieved to hear that someone else had done that too. Well I have another one, I made a glass of cordial only when I went upstairs and had a sip it was really strong and when I looked at it I realised I had forgot to put some water in it, anyone else had a memory lapse like that? 7 weeks to go until my pill injection wears off *cries* how the time flies by! Let's see, Becky's do was ace, apart from losing my shoes which appeared in the gents toilets! All I did was kick them off so I could dance around like a nob and then one had disappeared! Lucky that was all resolved, my memories terrible but I think I met Kim's friend Kat that night, and Dave, again and the three of us went out the week after. It's all been good stuff anyway! Went for a meal with Amy and Mullie was nice seeing them again even though Mullie seemed a bit off with me but whatever, take her or leave her. A bit of a nasty attitude I know but can you blame me! I went to a house party weekend just gone, Lauren was really pissed so I saw her back home and ended up back again and chatting to Paul til the early morning, people crashed there but I decided my brand new, comfy double bed was worth the 5 minute walk home! I think I'm supposed to be going 5th Ave on wednesday but I don't know, with the week i've had and the mood i'm in right now it seems unlikely! Anyway, I shall leave it there. That's all folks! Current Mood: Apprehensive but hopeful (Comment on this)
7:26 pm	The Shit! Basically what's happened at work is that Sophie got suspended after £5000 went missing out of the safe. After looking at CCTV an intruder was seen walking into the back of our shop and leaving 5 minutes later. He had taken the money from the safe and also money from Sophie's bag and put everything back as it was. Sophie had accidently left the office door unlocked and was suspended immediately and then we had the big bosses crawling all over our shop, interviewing everyone who was in that day etc. Now we've got Kirsty managing the store until Jean gets back off holiday and she doesn't know what's gone on yet. They've gone so far as to change ALL the locks and are putting a keypad on the warehouse door and security has really stepped up a gear, we're not allowed to sit at the back door anymore or prop the office door open and little things like that. We're not allowed to talk to Sophie which IS ABSOLUTE BULL SHIT, she's my friend as well as a colleugue! It's just really weird, I can't get my head around it!  Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Friday, July 4th, 2008
5:04 pm	The Demon Shall Be Woken... Disclaimer: If you do not want to know about my "girl problems" look away now! ARGH! I can't stay on the pill injection anymore! Apparently, according to some recent scientific research it's unsuitable for young girls to stay on it more than two years as it can cause brittle bone disease (something about oestrogen (or lack thereof) and bones) and i've been on it nearly 4 years! (eekk!) So I've had my last one, and in approximately ten weeks time i'm going to have "girl problems" for the first time in a LONG time. Not such a problem right? Ohhh yeah, so basically i'm going to get my incredibly bad temper and violent rage back (worse than usual!) my ridculously painful, long, heavy periods although on the brightside I won't come on every like 2 weeks like I did before because i'll be on the usual pill, but it's still shit because i'm gonna have to remember to take the bastard thing every day. Better than the alternative I guess! I am kind of wishing it will all be miraculously better but I doubt it. The Shaz demon shall be woken, all I can do is warn! On a much better note i've had some cracking nights out but you know how it is, it's always a bit fuzzy. Went to see Amy to begin with in the pub because she couldn't come out *sad faces* and checked out her new car and a few down the pub! Then went off to Jillys, it was ace I managed to get us all in free with my tickets which is always a bonus! It was so good seeing Kim after all that time, we ended up staying at hers and chatting bollocks all night but it was all good! Been out with Lauren too, the "matalan crew" (well a few of) went out for Sarah's birthday in the gay villiage which was good! And then on tuesday just gone, me, Lauren and different members of the matalan crew went to the pub to see off Hayley and Jenny on their trip to Spain for two months! Only that ended up back in the gay village again! Poor Lauren was being creeped out by Damo but she was too nice say anything bless her, you know, as you do! And i'm going to a do this saturday for Kim's sisters (Becky) 18th. All good stuff! I've had loads of overtime at work and therefore extra cash. It's great only I don't know what to spend it on but i'm gonna set up a savings account and save some cash to perhaps go India next year, or for a deposit on somewhere or something like. It's brill, I get to spend more time at work, which I love, get paid more and work my way through the ranks eventually! I have made an executive desicion on my love life too. No more Mr Brightside! I'm now a nun! Guys are out of the picture for the moment, their not worth the hassle, unless of course the right one comes along (ha ha ha). Plus I've heard some unsettling news that someone likes me off two different, completely unrelated sources and just NO! Basically what i'm saying is i'm just not focusing on that right now, but not ruling it out completely if you get where i'm coming from. Probably not but nevermind, I know what I mean I'm gonna leave it there, because my arse has gone numb! Toodles! Current Mood: Apprehensive but cheery! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 18th, 2008
9:30 pm	Three weeks later... last updated three weeks ago! That's quite a while for me these days, there was a time when i'd only write once a month if that but i've found this year i've been writing more. In fact I think it might have been a new years resolution or something like that. Anyway, you'll have to bear with me here whilst I try and recall what happened three weeks ago, my memory is shocking I have to open my LJ in two tabs so I can write in one and see where I left off with the other! So where to begin, I discovered Jones has fallen out with me, I just wished someone mentioned this to me before we were chatting! Nevermind, I'm not wasting my time on a person like that so it saves me a job. I saw matt for the first time in months on the same night and actually had to laugh, i'm not really sure why but whatever it was it was funny! I also saw Ant and him sat together and it was weird because I didn't feel weird if you know what I mean, I don't know but if someone asked me as a hypothetical question "how would you feel if you saw two of your ex's?" I would answer "Mortified" or "Really weird" or something along those lines, but no whatever, I carried on my mission. I was also befriended by numerous people, maybe I have one of those faces or something but it was a good night considering I was going to go home at midnight but instead got in at six! It's a small world too, two guys who befriended me were mates with Adj (or however you'd spell that!) whose face I knew before through Mel and also Tasha's little sister and older bro. My birthday (and emma's, who I did not know birthday's so close to mine) night out was ace! We were dressed up me as a french maid, Lauren as the exorcism of Emily Rose (because she had a bandage on her arm and a white dress as she forgot!), Soph as a fairy, Laura as super girl and Emma as a biker! We started at Font bar for £2 cocktails, then moved on to the student union where Lauren gave me a good birthday pressie (cryptic huh?!) Then we bought some tickets for a launch night so when the union closed we went their but the dick head in the cab we flagged down didn't know where he was going to and just dropped us off in the middle of no where, then we walked into this hotel for the loo and directions and finally got where we were going. Only to find it was shit! It was expensive and when I asked for a cider and black I got a glass with a bit of blackcurrent and a can of cider! We fucked that off and went to overdraught and danced like nob heads for a bit (or at least me and Lauren did!) and then we were invited to a house party which was pretty local to me and off we went! Laura, Soph and Emma got off after a bit and me and Loz stayed and there were people from the "matalan crew" there it was ace! Only the next morning I woke up in agony, I'd been sailing as well the night before and I think the dancing pushed me over the edge. I could hardly move, it takes alot for me to ring in sick but I couldn't go and work in the woodside otherwise people would be wearing their dinner instead of eating it and I probably wouldn't even be physically able to pick anything up. A few days later I handed in my notice because i'm now beauty specialist at Superdrug :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D It's all good! I'm also hoping to save up some pennies and go on a tour thing in India next year (like the Taj Mahal!) and then i'll probably be looking to get my own place! I also went for a meal at the woodside with my mum and some of her work mates (Karen, her daughter Kelly, and Debbie) which was good lots of random chat, wine, cider, and gaelic coffee's! I was in work in the morning and I was pleasantly surprised that I was like dying! Lets see what else? My minds drew a blank now, although I was in Morriway the other day and I just happened to be on Gemma's conveyor belt and she was giving me the latest sounds like Tom's been a twat to her and general things like that but what made me laugh is that matt was with a girl and Anthony liked her, he saw her kissing someone else, he assumed they weren't together anymore and now matt has fallen out with him again and (now this is what really got me) told him to watch his back. It's not really that funny now i've wrote it and I think I should explain the funny parts of that because I don't want it to be taken the wrong way but almost sounds like history repeating itself (Anthony with matts ex's) and matt is so full of shit  and full of it the mental image is amusing. I think I explained that really poorly but I suppose it's a kind of you-had-to-be-there moment and I do not want to be mistaken for being jealous about either one of them! (I also find that thought amusing, I think I need a sense of humour transplant or something!). Something else that was totally funny was the pictures of a camera I got developed. I forgot what was on it and it was like pics of nights out and stuff, Anthony had short hair and looked like a right twat and I had a pic of matt and when I showed Sophie she hit me over the head and told me never, ever to go out with someone that minging again! And everyone else in work that day found the pic amusing too! Going to Jillys this weekend with Kim and Amy who i've not seen for like ages so i'm looking forward to it and also Soph is coming too I just worry that she's going to hate it seen as she thought Grand Central looked scary. I've got to take her in there to prove that it's really not! I need to use my camera up as well, I looked like a right idiot cranking up my camera while they had their digital ones on my last night out. I want all my pics to stick on my wardrobe though so you can't get better than the real thing for that! That's all for now, I was going to go off on one about another thing but i'll leave that for my next entry or i'll be here all night! I only wanted to write all this quickly but I think it's impossible for LJ to do that it's still taken me at least an hour to remember it all and then write it down but I suppose that's what you get when your cramming three weeks into one entry! I've missed loads out as well because i'm getting impatient but I always end up missing stuff, I can't remember like everything! Good night! Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2008
1:56 pm	MAY I PLEASE ANNOUNCE THAT I DO NOT HAVE A LOVE BITE ON MY NECK I REALLY DID IN FACT BURN MYSELF ON MY HAIR CURLERS AND I CAN PROVE IT BECAUSE IT'S STARTED TO SCAB OVER (lovely!) WHICH LOVE BITE DO NOT DO! Thank you! If I have to explain this to one more person i'm gonna crack up! Right, you'll have to bear with me here. I've had quite an unusual weekend, which, basically means I did something different for a change! But ones memory is slightly hazy as I drank every night from Thursday to Sunday (well monday morning?) and they kind of just merge together as one! So Friday Lauren came round and we drank some lambrini and had a catch up, you know as you do! (Lauren will understand that) she has me in giggles that girl and that reminds me actually, she wrote "clean me" and "I wish my wife was as dirty as this" on my dad's car, I wonder if he's noticed! But that was a good night, and I found a quid on my way home from walking down to the bus stop with her, BONUS! Ha, I was looking for a kid with a piece of string hiding round the corner! Now then, worked Saturday day time and went to a party with Soph on Saturday night. I ran to Matalan after work to get a top to wear, then when I got home I had a shower got changed, did my hair all in about 10 minutes and then flew in a taxi (I got out of work for quarter to six, got home for twenty past and got in a taxi at half past!) but the party was good even though I didn't really know anyone and how weird is this, I am so sure I looked at my phone while I was there to look at the time but later on I couldn't find my phone, spent AGES searching for it and it was on the table when I got home! Although i'm blaming that on the regrowth of blonde hair I seem to be getting! And Karen (who I work with) did my tarot cards for me bless, *screws eyes shut in a bid to remember*  the past and present cards were about leaving shit behind, thinking too much and over analysing things and the future card was about new romance and as you can imagine after what I said in the last entry that got me on one! And then the last card (I forgot what she called it) was about travel, so I was pretty made up about that too!  And basically the cards together was just about leaving shit behind and moving on so that's good, at least it didn't say I was going to be hit by a bus anytime soon! Anywhoodles, Sunday didn't get off to a good start just because I was working! And it was to get even worse as I ended up going out on my own, saw the queue for 5th foam party and thought fuck that and went in overdraught and had a couple in there. Anyway by a stroke of luck I was going to the loo and saw Mell and Jerv who were like who you here with and I was like myself and explained how I was going to go to the foam party and they were like jump in the queue with us, were right at the front so I only had to queue for a bit! The foam party was MINT i'd go again but I wouldn't wear stupid shoes (wedge heels are not the best footwear on a wet floor!) and i'd try not to almost drown next time! Anyway after the foam party I went back in overdraught for the last few hours of the night and I was waiting for Mell and Jerv to come in when a random girl comes over and says "are you Sharron?" and I was like "yeah" (which is unusual for me as I normally say no!) and she says "i'm deirdre*" (I don't know why i'm still using alias', they amuse me! But for those just tuning in, which is probably no one! That was the girl who was going out with george* when he sought me out, i'm sure you get the idea) but what happens next is quite amazing, she shakes my hand and says she's sorry for having a go at me and stuff and I was like don't you dare apologise to me! If she was me I would have jumped on me! (now there's an interesting thought, who win out of a fight between me and me? It would probably be a fight to the death! Although angry me would win against normal me, anyway, moving on) And she was like i'll buy you a drink, and I was like no i'll buy you one. But I suppose that says alot about me, short tempered and viscious, I've gone for "me's" in the past before. And then my parents came home on Monday, you'd think they'd be in a good mood but they were right miserable! So i've just stayed out of there way and hopefully me and Soph will be talking about moving out after she comes back off her jollies! o0o0o it's my birthday in 6 days but oddly i'm not all that excited, I will be when we all go out dressed to the loose theme of "sluts" the weekend after next! Going to Font, i've never been before but £2 cocktails and shooters, can't really complain! 168 hours later, after sending the text! It's really quite sad isn't it? (again I think my obsessive personality is to do with that!) Hmmm the tarot cards, could that be my new romance, or apart of what I leave behind? *makes spooky noises!* Only time will tell I guess! I've probably missed all sorts out of that but never mind, I'm sure this is another one of those entries that i'll laugh at when I look back at it! It seems weird though, i've been writing here for 2 and a half years, it's seems like yesterday I was writing down my first new year resolutions! But it's sometimes nice to flick back through and laugh at daft situations I was really worried about that turned out alright in the end. Anyway, i'm just chatting bubbles now, hasta la vista! Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
12:34 pm	One of those days... Today, i'm just going to spend all day in my room because (as the title suggests) i'm having one of those days. Firstly, and this is going to sound a little bit cryptic because it's only for me to know! I'm such a fool it's untrue, in a bid to sort out my love life (well not so much sort, start would be a better word!) I was having a bold moment and sent a (very long) text. 12 hours later there's still no reply so that's well and truly fucked up, i'm thinking i'll leave it a few days maybe and then just say like forget I said anything kind of thing, but I suppose the damage is done, why do I always ruin a good thing? I'm surprised how much it's hurting actually, it's even a physical ache as well how sad am I?! I've even lost my appetite and that NEVER happens! Then there's the sighing, i'm so hopelessly pathetic (note to self: never do this to yourself again, this note sounds familiar....yeah because i've noted it many times before!). I'm supposed to be getting my future told in some way in the near future maybe it will give me good news! (HA wishful thinking, that and these things should only really be taken with a pinch of salt! If it says something I want to hear though i'll be obsessed, damn obsessive personality!) If that's not torturing me enough there's just little things that are putting the extra boot in if you like. I decided to venture from my room and make a coffee, which tastes a bit funny because the milk went yesterday, as I was making my coffee the window cleaners came and I'm one of those people who won't leave the house without her face on and then there's a window cleaner stood there and all i'm wearing is my (short) nightie and my just-got-up-in-the-morning-look-like-a-heroin-addict-on-a-come-down expression. So I like scarper but then they knock on the door because my idiot parents haven't paid up 4 times and I don't have any money, and you can't really hide behind a glass door! Then I go upstairs and look at my emails, my phone bill and then it dawns on me, I got some funky discount and used it yesterday, leaving a tenner in the bank so I don't have enough money in the bank to pay it until tomorrow! How much of a bitch is that! I don't know what will happen there I think i'll be overdrawn (which I have never been in my life!) or i'll be disconnected until tomorrow which will be an absolute bastard if I get the reply i'm looking for. Even my computer is sticking the knife in because the pointless dial-up connection screens keep appearing and interupting my typing (all they need is being closed again but it's annoying none the less) and MSN keeps coming the front (again interupting my typing) complaining that the "web page is unavailable" which only requires you to click connect. Although my cash flow problem is probably a blessing in disguise as I don't have enough pennies to stalk my erm text receiver (?) Although if I did happen to turn up where he is it wouldn't be too freaky because I am often in the area. Oh my days! The fact i'm considering all this is slightly, freakily, obssesive! If I was a celeb I'd book into rehab! In fact i've just thought I hope he doesn't read this or he'll think i'm psycho or something! I seriously need to get a grip "text receiver" probably won't want anything to do with me anyway. Yes realistic, down to earth thinking, yet my head is still in the clouds! Current Mood: lovesick and stupid (Comment on this)